Making the most out of time

It has already been 2 months into the holidays since my A-levels ended. Amidst the Chinese New Year fervor, I have been reflecting upon what I have been doing the past few months.

I still remember the huge list of things that I wanted to get done during the A-levels. Funny how not much on that list has been accomplished. This happens for various reasons, with the most common being:

1) I am not free (since work has pretty taken up all my weekdays)

2) I have no money (which explains why I have to work)

3) I am simply too lazy

Reason no. 3 was the most surprisingly, and yet, predictable reason that I could have seen myself giving during A-levels actually. Ironic though. One gets so excited for something; yet, when the time comes to really do it, all that steam seems to have blown off, leaving one simply too lazy to move our butts off.

After chatting with Zixin, she told me that I had to plan things properly and really set out to do them, or else, this chance/ time will simply go by without one noticing. Kudos to Zixin for always giving me advice that shakes me up/ gets me moving. After thinking it through, I realised she was right. In a flash, 2 months had already gone by. I needed to stop being caught up in the drone of the working life. 

Which is why, I forced myself to commit to things which I have always been putting off. I started running/jogging. I am now telling myself to do it twice a week. 

AND I STILL HATE JOGGING. However, with the bus fares so high for adults, jogging simply is the cheapest form of exercise one can find.

I have also signed up for Chinese painting classes. I actually thought the classes for NAFA were quite interesting but apparently, I missed the sign up date for the Jan intake :( So, I am currently attending classes from Vision Art Studio at Clarke Quay. Today's going to be my first lesson and I hope it goes well!

After all that's said, something else that I really want to do is TRAVEL.

I want to go to Japan, but no one is willing/ has the money to go with me D:

Honestly, I wouldn't mind going by myself haha, but being adventurous still has its limits, especially in a place I have never been to before. I really hope that by hook or by crook, I will be able to get into Japan to experience the culture etc!

On a side note, work is the same. Although, I do get to learn a few things, such as the time frame for applying for a work permit. Seeing how people react in a workplace is quite interesting as well; though I would rather be left out of some of the politics going on as well haha.

...A-level results are going to be out in around 2 weeks. *nervous*

I want to be with people my age

After starting work, being constantly surrounded by people older than me, I am starting to feel a little lonely and out of place.

I remember once reading an article that talked about why teenagers of this generation are narcissistic and other horrible adjectives. It said something along the lines of, how can one expect a teen who constantly surrounds oneself with people of his/her own age to mature without listening to viewpoints from adults? I remember myself nodding my head in slight agreement when reading that particular comment.

And yet now, I dearly miss the companionship of people my age who, according to the author, probably talk about stupid/ irrelevant things.

I think that it is hard not to feel out of place with adults surrounding a young person. There is just something about the age difference that makes it inherently difficult to relate on certain issues. I mean, the 10s and the 20s have A LOT of difference, even when I am 19, just one year shy from 20.

People in their teens: Studying, probably obsessing over music/ fashion/ idols

People in their 20s: Start dating (seriously), working (permanently), finding a house, having kids (?!)

While the author is probably right in talking about how I would probably mature more from talking to adults, I would like to confine that interaction to a certain time period, kind of like how I get a sneak peek into the adult world without fully plunging myself into it (that can wait till I am in my mid-20s).

At the end of the day, my main point is: I WANNA HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS MY AGE AND NOT HAVE TO CARE ABOUT WHAT I TALK ABOUT.

And..... I am going to do just that! I've got a dinner date with Huiyi, Dion and Shermaine tomorrow night. Can't wait to start acting all teenager-ish.