just finished the psle listening compre and immediately online while cooking my lunch.

today was okay except for the fact that i did not bring an umbrella to sch and in the end have to share with my friend, rachel lim, thank you! :)

sorry that i did not continue the story yesterday, was in sch when posting.

argh! i got so many lead assignments that i am going to tear my hair out. just kidding.

anyway, continuing. and my neighbour is there shouting dunno crazy stuff. hate it.... sigh. there it goes again! :(

oops, sorry but then, there is a mistake in my story. this part is supposed to be like this: (wrong words in bold)
My mum…will she help me or reprimand me for staying up so late? I shuddered. My mum was a teacher and was known to be able to deal with children cases in a proper manner. (deleted the part about dad and mom quarreling) I am not sure what her reaction would be after hearing about this incident. I trudged my way home and pushed the gate which joints were rusty and needed oiling. -mom is already divorced


the continuation of the story:
I munched on my sushi and spoke through a muffled voice, “Mum, are you seeing someone?” She choked and coughed till I had to pat her back before she was ok. “Sue…where did you get that idea from?” she asked, eyeing me suspiciously. She must be thinking, “Was she spying on me? I must be careful!” I giggled and answered, “These days, you seem pretty elated and a momentary smile always flickers across your face. So, I thought…. Anyway, if you are really seeing that doctor, go for it mum!” I winked. She stared at me like I was some crazy woman and then burst out laughing. She guffawed, “Sue! My own daughter! He’s married, darling! I was going for my monthly checkups! Oh my god! Haha!” I listened, stunned. My face was flushed until the tips of my ears are red. “Oh…I see… Sorry for the misunderstanding, mom,” I stammered. She suddenly became serious. “I am sorry, Sue. But I haven’t got over what happened between your father and me. I cannot take the chance to be hurt again. I…” she trailed off, tears streaming down her face. I spoke softly, “It’s ok, mum. Everyone gets hurt once in a while,” I remembered what happened between James, my ex-boyfriend, and me, “you just have to learn to be strong and overcome it…” I had started crying too.
“Honey, what’s wrong? You don’t cry easily, that I remember.” I stifled a sob and could not stand it anymore. I blurted out the whole thing. My mom’s mouth was wide agape as she digested this piece of information. She screamed, “That son of a bitch! How dare he bully my daughter? He is going to get it from me when I drive you to school tomorrow!” I hugged her and cried. We stayed like that for an hour.
I sat on my bed and looked out of the window, it was raining. Raindrops trickled down the windowpanes and then, finally, dropped to the middle of the sideway. How lovely it would be to be able to just run away from your problems, just leave them far behind, never to be seen again. My problem with James, tomorrow, I would have to face him. What would he do? Will he do something rough towards me? Most importantly, what would mum do? I don’t want her chasing after him down the road, acting like a mad woman. I sighed out of frustration. So many things, my head is going to burst. At that moment, unconsciously, I cried again. It was the third time I am doing this. Why can’t I stop? I blinked and more tears came. I mumbled to no one in particular, “Take me. Take me away, away from this place, to a place called paradise.” But I knew that such places don’t exist, because this was like hell to me.

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I held onto the car handle fast. My mum and her reckless driving, one more time and I am going to vomit. My hair was in a mess but was soon fixed with the brush of my comb and the rearview mirror. “I have to speak to that boy,” my mom said sternly. Sometimes, I get really frightened too and cower to her. She was a lioness, firm yet charming.
As we stepped out of the car, the vision of my school and students rushing around filled my eyes. I looked around for James and was unusually relieved to find out that James was not here yet. “Where’s that rascal?” my mom demanded. I said urgently, “He is not here yet,” and rushed off to my class. “Hey, Sue! Come back here!” my mother shouted, not furious, just puzzled. I ignored her and went in, there, suddenly, was my boyfriend, the one whom I was suppose to meet that night. Derrick. His eyes blazed. I was in trouble. I instinctively avoided his gaze and pretended that I did not see him. I tried to walk past him. He grabbed my hand. “Nice try,” he said. He pressed me against the wall. He asked furiously, “Where were you that night? I waited for you for one whole hour!” I trembled and stammered, “I, I can explain.” He shouted, “This will teach you a lesson!” He grabbed my wrist and pulled me to the staircase where no one was. Deserted. Derrick snarled. Then, he started kissing me furiously and hugging me. I struggled. No, not the same thing! I pushed him away and ran for my life. I then went to the ladies. I shut myself in a cubicle and naturally, cried. Why was I abused again and again? Was I just a toy to be played with? Why?

to be continued~

about 23 days left to the first paper of psle. lol. sad. unhappy. moody. emotional. lol. haha(wasn't i sad a few seconds ago?) anyway, i am in sch so i cannot continue the story. (by the way, got copyright issues! ok?)hope that you all like it. thanks to those who gave me the encouragement lol. haha. anyway, bad news. my father says that i cannot use com starting from next week! :( sigh... psle is causing me lots of trouble and tomorrow is listening compre psle! my heart in my mouth lol.
saddie, sigh... tears brimmed in my eyes and one slid down my cheek. haha, not compo now. heehee. recently, cannot do drawing as i gotta revise and revise. and i made the font bigger as it will be easier for u all to read my post. i was thinking of putting something like the hits and how many ppl visited my blog! wad you all think? jasmine, can help?
today, pe was again a fun and enjoyable time as we watched funny moves, something like comedy. haha. year end coming and now sooo many ppl sudenly online in msn, dunno why. i wanna install the msn windows live plus! in this computer cuz it is like sooo old fashion lol. :( anyway, byebye

well, today was ok, gonna revise later! :) sigh.... i typed the continuation of e story, enjoy! and i found out my marks:
eng:89
maths:95
sci:86
chi:89
hmt:72(worst ever)
total is 431/500. lol. i think i dropped! :(

Ring!!! My alarm clock rang. I opened one eye and glanced at the time. Then, dozed back to sleep again. “Sue, time for breakfast!” my mom shouted for below. I groaned and forced my still flexible body to sit up. I walk lazily to the toilet and did the usual routine unconsciously. I put on my favourite light purple sweater and jeans. Afterwards, I tied my hair into a ponytail. As I walked down the stairs, my head got clearer and I felt fresher.
“So, Sue. Where did you go last night? I waited for you till midnight.” My mom was always the first to strike up a conversation. At that instant, I stopped momentarily and shivered. Last night. What happened last night? My ex-boyfriend! He…he…. “What’s wrong, honey?” my mother asked, concerned. I was startled and recovered from the shock quickly and briefly answered, “Oh, I went out with my friends.” I then quickly turned to do the dishes. She knew that sign and did not continue the interrogation. I heaved a sigh of relief. However, a tear slid down my face and got mixed up with the soapy water in the basin. I was glad that the blasting water from the basin covered up the fact that I was crying. Again.

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Very soon, I was sure that I would run out of tears and would dehydrate one day. I stared at my cushy pillow. It was soaking wet with my tears. I just could not get over the incident. I thought, “Oh man, mom’s going to come back from work soon. I better clear this mess.” I got a new pillow cover but it was no use as the inside of the pillow was wet too. So, I got a new pillow altogether from the storeroom and replaced the old one. Finally, I was done. At that moment, I heard a car screeching outside and knew that was my dear old mom. She had barely passed her driving test but was determined to drive a car wherever she goes. Just to prove my father wrong.
They had been divorced for about ten years. He left when I was eight. My mother screamed when he walked out of the house with the suitcase she bought for him, full of his belongings. I asked my mom innocently, with big adorable hazel brown eyes, “Mummy, where is daddy going? I want to go too.” But she was too devastated to answer. All I could do was hug my favourite toy and console her although I did not know why she was crying. Then, she hugged me and said in between sobs, “Sue, I am going to create a bright future for you and let that bastard father regret it!” I then answered mildly, “Ok, momma.”
“What are we having for dinner, mom?” I asked eagerly once I heard my stomach rumbling furiously. “We are having your favourite sushi!” she smiled. I looked at her and grinned. She was my idol. Her slim body and reclining figure would make any man drool. You would not even guess that she was forty years old. Recently, she was seeing a doctor in the nearby hospital a lot. Well, maybe they had chemistry…


to be continued~

yesterday, my family and i saw a ladybird cute! i wanna upload the video but soooo long so i gave up, sigh! anyway, tonight my family going to eat pepper lunch whereby we have to cook our own food! so fun haha! anyway, continue the story :

Then, I stopped short. I was cornered. No way to run. I turned around to face this menacing man. He advances towards me and his hands reached out. He was a predator and I was a helpless and hapless prey! Beads of sweat dripped down my forehead. He pinned me down. I struggled and screamed with the lungs of an eighteen year old girl. The cold floor was in sharp contrast with the warm body of the assailant. I was trapped. He glowered above me. We wrestled on the cold floor. I fought tooth and nail to stay alive! He ripped my clothing. He was going to strip me of all my dignity! However, I was not going to throw in the towel. I kept on struggling until there was not an ounce of strength left in me.
Finally, I gave a hard kick. My ex-boyfriend was thrown to the ground. I hurriedly made my escape while he lay slumped on the floor, groaning in pain from the impact of the attack. While running, I pinned my clothes back with tears running down my cheeks. I scanned the empty room. I prayed fervently for some divine intervention. Like an answer to my prayer, I saw light coming from underneath a door. Tears of joy sprang out! I pushed the door eagerly. Yes! I was free. I then bolted the door from the outside. “He will not be able to escape now,” I thought with relief.
As I walk down the streets leading to my house with people drunk at two o’clock in the morning, I could not resist the temptation to cry again. I was nearly a victim to a man’s needs! How could I face the world? I suddenly felt so lonely… I glanced up and saw my house. My mum…will she help me or reprimand me for staying up so late? I shuddered. My parents were both teachers and were known to be able to deal with children cases in a proper manner. However, these days, they have been arguing over the tiniest matters. They had even mentioned the word ‘divorce’ before! I am not sure what their reactions after hearing about this incident will be. I trudged my way home and pushed the gate which joints were rusty and needed oiling. Creak! I sighed. I tip-toed to my bedroom and looked around the bedroom which had been mine since I was five. All my memories, tears and laughter were stored here. I changed out of my stinking clothes and wore new ones.
Afterwards, I laid on my bed. Memories of what had happened one hour ago flashed before my eyes and started dancing in front of my eyes. I was startled and sat up. My deep breathing became pantings. My clothes were soon drenched with sweat. I lay down again, curled up. That night, I cried myself to sleep.

story will be continued~

hi! today, i needed to go back to school and we had a motivational talk. it was fun and amusing! had lots of fun but there was one part when we needed to 'massage our friends'. ouch! was it painful! :( haha.... anyway, i decided to like write a story in my blog lor.... anyway, i will just like put it here. it is about a playgirl who was being kidnapped by her ex-bf and she is trying to escape. then, she become wary of men and has to try to get over her fear sooner or later. if i unexpectedly stop writing my story, dun b surprised for i am known to start something but dun end it, haha! :)oh, there might be like some phrases which 6-1 have used, tata! enjoy my story, lol.... :)

I had thrown caution to the wind. Now, it was getting back at me… I glanced around me, hoping to find a glimpse of light. My eyes adjusted to the gloomy darkness. However, as expected, nothing could be seen in this cold, bare room. I was a prisoner, a prisoner of myself. I should have known better. Better than to wander in the dark, lonely streets at night… a man had followed me. I did not care at first. I was late for my date and had to hurry before my latest boyfriend ditched me. Then, it happened. The man had wrapped his arms around me. I struggled for my miserable life, but the man was too strong for me. I screamed. He covered my mouth as well as my nose, depriving me of oxygen… I tried to breathe but was suffocating, on the inside and outside. For I finally knew what he was going to do. Afterwards, I fainted. I woke up to find myself in this dark lifeless room. Scars were inflicted on my once smooth skin…… what’s done cannot be undone. A salty tear slid down my dirty face. Who kidnapped me?
Just then, the heavy metal door grunted and I heard locks being opened. A chill went down my spine as I anticipated what was behind the door. “Hello there, my little darling,” a hoarse voice said cheekily. I gasped, for what was in front of me was my ex-boyfriend, the one whom I had just dumped three days ago. “Surprised? I thought that I had to get my reward for tagging along with you for a month. I was shocked and crushed when you dumped me but then? You found a new target as soon as I was gone! I was furious and angry,” his face was red and his eyebrowns arched upwards dangerously, “that you forced me to do this to you. Oh, but then, you were quite obedient for a while. After all, you had fainted, right?” There was an evil chuckle. I could not bear it anymore! I screamed, “You monster! You will pay for this! Argh!” I could not admit defeat so easily. My brain worked out a plan as my eyes darted towards the metallic door. I immediately raced there.
“Stop there!” my enemy ordered but I wasn’t listening. The fury and rage burned inside me and that kept me going. I turned round corners and bends, trying to find a way out of this seemingly endless maze. “Haha… you don’t even know where this place is! You can’t run away!” he laughed out loud. My tears flowed out as if a floodgate had opened.

will be continued~

hello, i am at my cousin'd hse today, staying until tomorrow. :) my mum say that this 2 days dun need to study:) but then after that must study hard cuz 4 more weeks to PSLE.

yesterday, we went to e!hub. two more of my cousins(ivy and iris) plus me went to pastamania. we eat spaghetti and a small pizza. at first, this was the conversation with the waitress at the cashier when we ordered:

(waitress)
(ok, 3 chicken bolognese......-wad we ordered)
(oh - opening the lids of the soup pot - there is tomato......and...... - we dunno wad she toking about! haha)
when we went back to our seats......

so.... we went back to order two more chicken bolognese....

(oh.... ok. 2 more chicken bolognese.)

(tomato.....-still dunno wad she toking, sigh....)

(that will be 14 cents and 60 dollars. - supposed to be 14 dollars and 60 cents haha.... :))
so.. i guess that the waitress was a newcomer!
then, we went to the arcade and play the one with the touch screen, play until our hands are painful lor... and also play the basketball, very fun! :) and also play the racing car until mad lor, dun wanna go back haha...
anyway, wad did any of you do during your holidays? put in tagboard thx!

my class is like recently breaking up.... where is the class spirit that 6-1 once had.... had it disappear into the ocean, somewhere on the seabed, never to be found again? why dun we try to put each other in others' shoes? be more kind and dun back stab others?....:( it feels funny and strange, i hope to see 6-1, the whole class on the ship call FRIENDSHIP, it is nothing without friends! rmb that, everyone!

prelims is finally over, yesss!!!!! but then that means psle is nearer. presently, there is a problem, but i just cannot express it in the blog, just in case some one might feel offended... sigh.... anyway, i hope that friendship will always be in the air

sian, no one to talk to...

it would seem tat i am almost like the only one online and tat it is soooo boring while others go study (they may be plaing though) *it's lonesome day*... i did one practise paper, should that be enough? i dunno. anyway, patricia asked me if i wanna go watch money not enough 2. i cannot decide. my dad said that before psle ends, i am not supposed to go out wif my friends again.... sigh.....i gonna go see lead and finish up the eng assignments, first. as i a bit lazy to do sci and maths. eng and sci is ok, but maths is totally abhorrent! haha.... vocab list word. i am not sure why but then, i feel like i haven got into the psle mode yet. haiz.... what to do???
p.s. tomorrw is maths prelim... i wish to get 100 marks, kinda hard though.... :/

singaporeans are so rude! excluding me n my frens, hee...

yesterday, i borrowed some books from the library and these are the titles!
1) A mango shaped space - vivianne recomended this to me!
2) Vampires Diaries - book 2 although u dun have to read book 1 to find out what is it about!
3) Make me over - 11 stories by different people
4) Homecoming - Dicey's song is sequel to this and vivianne took 1 whole month to finish this!
i read a mango shaped space and vampires diaries already. mango shaped space was nice and touching! about a gal who sees colours and shape when she hear sounds and alphabets has colours to her too! she has a cat called mango, who's wheeze is a colour just like a mango. she finds out that there are people like her and also is a bit of romantic stuff. but no disgusting thing- perfectly safe to read! gotta read this! :)
vampires diaries was also nice, i wanna read book 3! the sequel! haha, quite exciting though. about a gal who is in love with a vampire but at the same time, has a little liking to his brother, Damon. Damon is the evil one while Stefan, Elena is in love with, is the good guy. So, the 2 brothers fight over the gal and the story continues....
anyway, seeing the title, u should roughly noe what i am going to talk about - singaporeans being rude. i was sakae sushi, yesterday, when i saw that we were going to sit beside some noisy and giggling teenage gals. one of them had her feet on the seat in front of her. my first impression of them was not good at all... then, they started being soooo noisy that i turned a round and stared at a gal with white t-shirt.
she then asked loudly, "what u looking for?" when i turned back. i in the end got a lecture from my parents.
but seriously, those gals were the ones who started it first. they were the loudest in the whole restaurant. if they were in their sch uniform, the sch's reputation would surely be punished!
haiz.... oh, singapore has finally broken the 48 years record of not getting a medal! :) happy.... if we get a gold, we can have a holiday, the goverment decided! but for silver, dunno leh! my dad says so! :)
anyway, kudos to singapore team for getting silver!